I Have To Be Asked, I Guess,

I Had To Find A Relationship With Someone Who Could Simultaneously Make Me Grow Up And Keep Me Forever Young.

Restriction Generates Yearning. You Want What You Cannot Have.

When It’s Quiet In My Head Like This, That’s When The Voice Doesn’t Need To Tell Me How Pathetic I Am. I Know It In The Deepest Part Of Me. When It’s Quiet Like This, That’s When I Truly Hate Myself.

I Thought That If I Accomplished Enough, That Somehow I Would Be Let Off The Hook In The Future. Like I Didn’t Have To Keep Striving And Achieving Because I Had Done That Already, And It Would Add Up To Being Enough.

I Would Eat 300 Calories A Day - A Lot Of Jell-o And No-sugar Everything, Of Course. I Was Doing Pilates, Weight-training, Circuit Training; Over Lunch I Would Run On A Treadmill In My Dressing Room With A Fan On My Face So I Wouldn't Sweat My Makeup Off.